Sadness here you go again...
Its Saturday and I have 14 days to go and finally I'll be leaving them. Still no one from my friends at work knew that I'm leaving. Actually I am not sure if they knew that I am leaving already. After lunch my officemate left early, she took half-day rest and I was left alone in the office.
Since I was all alone I tried listening to the music of Fra Lippo Lippi. One song entitled Exchange of Heart made me sad, I don't know if it was the melody that make me sad or maybe I'm just missing something in my life.
My sister and I were discussing about future plans and I was crying when we talked about my mother. It really made me sad and helpless. I have already told my sister that I am willing to give up my dream of working abroad. I might live and find opportunities in here because I don't want to leave my mother in here.
I am thinking that time is so little to be away from her and I want spend my time with her especially now that she plans to retire in her job. I really hope that I can be a help instead of being a burden to her.
Again, Ms. Sadness is visiting me and she's killing me. I don't want to feel helpless, depress and hopeless.
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