63rd Day - My 365 Days

63rd Day:

A hindrance or misunderstanding...

Its the day I've been waiting. There were no notice of what my status will be. As I have understood I stay the same as what we have agreed prior months before. It should be the last day but as we agreed I'll be continuing my service towards the end of the audit. To keep my promise, I disregard the signed documents which will only be presented in the audit.

So much for work.....

Its time to have fun. Its been awhile since I have attended a gatherings of some of my colleagues. My position became a hindrance for me to trust people around my environment. I was too paranoid that they might not establishing true friendship but only for different purpose. I have isolated myself from them.

We were invited to a birthday party by a former colleague of ours, Capt. Regis in his house. So we went there together with other colleagues. We ate and had fun at the party and so with the birthday celebrant. We had two colleagues who left the workplace already for two different reasons also. And I myself knew of that reason because of the position I am holding in the workplace.

At first, there were awkwardness but as we go along it became normal days like before. But still I hate this feeling of thinking that the position I hold is a hindrance to begin a friendship and this feeling that they have misunderstood my actions.

Or I may just misunderstood everything also, deep within my heart I wanted to be friends with them. Its just lonely that you have no one to think as a friend.