Friends - ALA...

I want to apologize for not communicating lately with you.

I've been emotionally unstable for quite sometime. I wanted to share it with you but then I realized it might be a burden also to you.

I wanted to apologize for projecting being so strong but in the end I was overpowered by emotions and I became weak. This phrase was given by Pajen along time ago, "when I'm with you (barkada) its like you are my shield". I have always that in mind but then when we are too much emotionally unstable we become unstable also.

I wanted to cry on somebody but too afraid that I might be a burden to whom I am sharing. I used to be the type of person who is always there to listen. I reached to point in questioning why it seems nobody understand how I feel. Going emotionally unstable I reached to a point where I formulated crazy ideas.

But then just like any crazy time I reached to realization point. It will not help me.

I hope you bear with me in this short page of the site. I am not used to be weak but being weak and emotional makes me more human at all. I am writing to you to let you know how my feelings had drained me. I wanted to cry but you have nowhere to cry too. I wanted to talked to you but I know we have different problems.

I hide my weakness because I thought I needed to but then I am too weak and dumb for not showing it to you. Even though I know you will understand me but still I hide it. I'm so lame. In the first place, I know you will understood me because we've been through so much but then I'm so coward to face to you when all you can see is a "hurting Cash."

I just wanted to let you know how I feel. I wanted to hug you or I want an embrace from you...

I just need a warm hug from a friend...

Pa hug friend...

Pa cry friend..

Let me cry until its over...

Please let me lean on our shoulder till I dropped myself to sleep...

I'm missing you...