19th Day - My 365 Days

19th Day:

Things I want to do before I reach the age of 30...

Before I was very eager to have that plans but it seems everything went dark. Despite how much I pull myself to light it seems lie the more I wanted to be in light I am dragged down in the darkness and nowhere.

I am looking for a hand that will pull me in the shadow of darkness and bitterness but then I cannot see anything. The light ha not shed upon me in these days.

What do I really want now? Reaching 30 is not an option for me right now. I wanted to do something but I feel like I'm stuck.

What is in 30 that I need to strive to reach for it?